The first two weeks I was home and no longer working I became a sloth, Murray the sloth, to be more specific. Murray was the honorary mascot at the engineering firm I worked at for almost 7 years. Our company sold to the aerospace sector and one of my co-workers found a photo of a sloth wearing an astronaut outfit. The sloth actually looked like he had a grin on his face. Bingo! Our office mascot was born and we named him Murray. We found various photos of sloths, but my favorite was a photo of a sloth wearing a Santa hat that we wrote “Murray Christmas” on it and we gave it to our boss at Christmastime.
Here is the thing as we began to research sloths; sloths sleep a lot. While slow, when they do something they are very intentional about it. It might take hours for them to move from one spot to another but they are focused and deliberate.
Kind of like me right now.
Those first two weeks I was home, I slept. I slept a lot! I thought, “What is wrong with me?!?!” It was as if everything finally caught up to me and I crashed. I was emotionally, physically and spiritually spent. It reminded me of Elijah in I Kings 19. He was weary. He had reached his limit. He was doing what God had called him to do, but life finally caught up with him. He, too, found himself emotionally, physically and spiritually spent and unable to go on. He found a tree and fell asleep under it. God sent an angel twice to provide food and water and the angel said, “Get up and eat, for the journey is too much for you.” I Kings 19:7
“The journey is too much for you….”
Wow. Have you ever felt that way, too? Are you like me thinking, “Now where did I put that white flag again? I need to sew it to my sleeve. It will make it so much easier to wave it. I’ll just need to lift my arm.”
“Yoo hoo, Lord!!” as I frantically waive my arm/white flag of surrender.
While I can’t change this Autism journey (or you may not be able to change the journey God has called you to walk right now), I am thankful we are not alone on it. In fact, the Lord wants me to realize that He has been here all along and wants to help me long before I think I need to find the white flag of surrender. He doesn’t want any of us to be at the point that we are burned out, frazzled and on our last nerve. He wants to give us rest and to come to Him for strength!
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30
I did find rest for my soul and I feel so much better! It was wonderful to slow down and sleep.
A lot like Murray.
I am also giving myself a spiritual tune-up. I have been studying a book on prayer in Bible Study and I have to admit, I got rusty in my prayer life. In the past, I would pray a quick blanket prayer, “Lord, be with David; be with the kids right now at school…” type thing. This Bible Study is teaching me that I can’t be lackadaisical when it comes to my prayer life. It is focused. It is deliberate.
A lot like Murray.
I am thankful for my “sloth like time’ that allowed me to be refreshed and renewed. Now I am ready to go again with a sense of purpose and being intentional to go where God is calling me to go.
A lot like Murray…but hopefully a tad faster!
Thank you and bless you for praying! I have updated the Praise and Prayer Requests for this month. It is a separate page and it is a bit tricky to find. The page location depends if you are viewing this on your phone or computer/tablet. It may take some navigation but we want to thank you from the bottom of our hearts for praying for our girl (and us!)!!